Wednesday 5 November 2014
My Bucket List
I'm not sure that I had truly even begun to think about my own mortality until I had children, and once Bert came along I had this sudden sense of all of the dangers around me. I became acutely aware that I didn't want to put myself in any unnecessary danger, and now almost constantly (and perhaps irrationally) worry about Bert, and try hard to protect him as much as is humanly possible.
I've talked before about not wanting to become an anxious wreck of a parent, and trying hard to get the balance right in terms of what I worry about, and how much I worry in general. In the same sense though, I now feel compelled to ensure I get absolutely everything I can out of life, for both myself, and my family.
One of my big aims was to get fit, improve my health and lose a lot of weight - spurred on by the arrival of Bert I became determined to be the best version of me I could be, I want to be around for a really long time for my boy, and I knew that being drastically overweight would reduce my life expectancy - it would also set very bad examples for my son. So, I set about shifting the weight I needed to, and now, 14.5 months later I'm over 6 stone lighter and feeling really great.
This achievement has left me with a sense that I can really do anything I put my mind to, and so I sat down and started to compile a list, a bucket list if you will, a random collection of things I'd like to do, places I'd like to visit, restaurants I'd love to eat in, tasks around my house I dream of completing, experiences I'd like to have, things I'd like to own…
Obviously, the list is by no means 'finished' and will no doubt be ever-changing - I am forever discovering new things I'd like to do, or places I'd like to visit, and at only 28 years old I'm hugely aware that there's so much more out there for me to discover. The list will grow and change as I grow and change - I will scrub things off as my mind changes, tick off completed items, and continue to add new things to the list - but I feel better for writing it. I always feel better when I put my ideas down in black and white. It somehow feels more possible for me to complete if I can tick it off a list.
The list is I guess quite materialistic - it doesn't cover my wider aims in life such as having more children, maintaining a happy marriage, being a good parent, being healthy and maintaining my weight loss etc. This list is just about 'stuff' - what I want to do, where I want to go, things I'd like to experience.
What would make it on to your bucket list?
Do you share any of the aims on my list?
Lucy's Bucket List
- Learn to drive
- Perform on stage at The National Theatre
- Have singing lessons/voice training again
- Make my own dress from scratch
- Make some Pyjama bottoms for myself from scratch
- Make something for Bert to wear
- Wear a bikini and feel pretty confident